Schmerz

It's the sorrow. The grief. But it's different because it's the reaction that one accepts as one's necessary portion in life. And it's different because you just can not relate to it when you haven't had the loss. You fear it. But you never feel it. We are all apprehensive about when will it happen? How will it affect me? Will I survive it?But it's so personal. It's not for you unless it's in you.

Yes we sympathize with friends. We share. And become sad ourselves. But I guess we never feel the exhausting mechanism that would otherwise rob us of both physical and emotional energy. For a person in mourning, everything'll be so raw. So painful. But the schmerz would never take the real toll on our bodies.

It only pricks you, tears you when the grief is yours or once was.

And no mater how considerate and selfless we proclaim to be, we in the end are left with hollow condolence notes like life-is-an-acceptance-of-all-that-is...
has-been...
will-be...
And-will-not-be.